Dream wedding?!
Sep 16, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C4VfcmSzhhA

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welcome I hope everybody is having a
wonderful start to your guyses weekend I
just now look look at all my clothes
yeah
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never a dull moment in our household I
will tell you that and look at all that
my kids have just been having a field
day in here today but I was busy I was
trying to get the vlog edited for
yesterday and get it exported today and
God but it did get done and I hope you
guys are truly enjoying watching my
little workout I am feeling it today
Oh Natalia I am filling it it was
definitely uh it wasn't workout I'm
gonna joke with you it was a workout
you don't think sitting down would make
a workout but so I'm filling it today
but that's a good thing because that
means then I I used muscles that hadn't
known that I had for a while as it
definitely yesterday it made me feel
good I felt like I really truly
accomplished something in my journey of
trying to change my atmosphere change my
lifestyle change everything and just
sitting in the house all day every day
just isn't what I want to do and you
know with struggling with my exhaustion
and things like that I think that this
is gonna only amp it up I mean I think
that it for a while probably will tire
me out I'm not used to moving around
like that as much but with you know the
cleaning and everything else I think
that I'm just starting to really want to
push myself harder and harder because I
know in the end of the day I'm gonna
feel the best so anyways that is my goal
I am going to insert my weight loss here
hello pretty
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okay you guys so as you see I am down
six pounds this week which remember last
week I gained two pounds so I've
technically lost an extra four pounds
yay so I'm down
well I'm Pat I'm back down from what I
gained and I'm down for more extra
pounds so I could not be more excited
more proud of myself and I think that
it's just continuously reminding myself
that this is just a journey you know
you're gonna have your weeks where you
might go up you might stay the same you
might only lose a pound but you know
what it's all about the matter of how
much I am pushing myself to continue and
that's just what I'm doing every day I
wake up and I say this is a new day I'm
gonna do this I'm gonna push myself to
make better choices and so seeing six
pounds come off the scale I was so
excited because so last week I lost only
or no it last week I gained two pounds
but the week before that I lost six
pounds so yeah I'm pretty excited so in
two weeks I lost 10 pounds I guess if
you look at it that way but yeah anyways
all right you guys I'm gonna get in the
car and see where my family is off to ok
you guys so we just actually walked
through the door doesn't look like I've
moved anywhere right I promise we did
just see I'll prove to you got my tea so
yes we did leave and we came back but I
didn't vlog while I was out because for
some reason I don't know my phone was
connecting to my radio because we have
Bluetooth and every time I was trying to
vlog it was linking into my car I don't
know and so it made it sound like I was
like a million miles away from the car
really I wasn't see how I was just like
never mind I'm not gonna dry it I am NOT
gonna dry it but I am so excited because
I stopped off at Dollar Tree and I got
some stuff that I'm gonna make for a
crafting video I'm so excited
to get that up for you guys I'm probably
gonna start working on a little bit of
it this afternoon depending how my
children act but I'm excited to
definitely sit down and do that for you
guys
and you'll be something that you guys
would enjoy doing I want to do it soon
so that way you guys that's all that's
all trash yeah anyways so it's show
these to you guys real quick so she
could take off with them I bought her
some headbands she's been dying for him
so I went ahead here you go baby look no
look look there's headbands for you and
then I got some weigh-in socks because
of my Mickey socks I'd have my weigh-in
sock see okay you don't always see him
but he is on my feet every single time
that I weigh in but now I picked up
another pair of four-dollar I'm just
like she can't beat that now when I paid
like five something for my Mickey months
that I'm days I'm gonna make it back to
Dollar Tree again in the next few weeks
and I'll pick up some more stuff for her
because she is just she loves she's just
such a little girly girl so when now
that Mama sit down and does her makeup
which I've never done before now she
wants to sit down and do her makeup and
I love it I love every bit of it so it's
like so but I wanted to buy her a little
bit for herself because boy she is
making a dent in mine
but anyway so yeah and I'm not gonna
show you guys the stuff that I bought
for my craft video just yet
I will show you all of that on the
upcoming video so stay tuned
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it's me well I don't think I look like a
stranger well I might with my makeup all
smeared all everywhere it has been a
wonderful wonderful afternoon
I got caught up on so much stuff
including including my transferring
stuff over to my tablet I had to think
about it for me I'm like hello
transferring stuff over to my tablet
because I've been a try and do some of
like my youtubing stuff on my tablet but
do my videoing of course with my camera
but I think it's gonna make it a lot
easier to do like my editing and things
like that with my tablet because I think
I'll be able to see better and because
with my eyes they play tricks on me
sometimes and sometimes I think
something looks amazing and then I get
looking at my Oh
so anyways I uh yeah I did that most of
the afternoon you guys I found some of
my stuff that I just bought from from if
I could think of my words for Walmart
and I was just like oh my gosh um I
didn't buy this stuff that I seen from
or that I got from Walmart cuz clearly I
don't need it right now but I seen it
and I was like oh my gosh like I cannot
believe that they have so much makeup at
Dollar Tree of all places I was just
like oh my goodness um so anyway so I
was just gonna show you really quick the
beauties the goodies that I got the
first things that I got were some lip
glosses
the first one is glimmer
I don't you guys could see how that look
they my camera's gonna do any justice to
that but
and it's from the Dollar Tree so and you
know not expecting like the best but hey
you know what relax me we like to play
with it
at least I do it is a little bit cuckoo
pee though god there's really goopy
Lukey take my words back
I encounter my husband got why are you
doing like try be a star superstar okay
this right not reaiiy color
well you'd hope I got it in my actual
lips okay this is what I need my camera
art my my mirror what do you guys think
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he's not filling it
I mean think god it's only a dollar yes
Rob no actually I would not give that to
her because that crap is that goop now I
got another one from Dollar Tree see
what this one does glance let's see you
look like a kid stuff oh my God look get
up there hmm no my husband's really
gonna ask what in the world I'm doing oh
my god I got it a lot
okay this is not a bad color I thought I
just had it on my tongue
dark colors usually make like I'm always
afraid that they make people's teeth
like look yellow doing um that is
actually not a bad color but good god
when it comes to me putting it on yeah
we need some help around here well I
mean like I said it's not about color I
would not be opposed to getting
something this color but um he's like
better quality I like honestly this one
I don't have a bad problem with this one
this one's a wet and wild I can control
that so if I could find one that's like
of this kind like in the wet and wild
I'd probably do it I don't have a
problem with the color but I have a
problem with the like maybe I've just
put way too much on my thing maybe
that's also it but I mean it's a huge
compared to the other one and that other
one oh now it's gonna make me look like
a liar look
because I know so much about makeup I
can just experiment you know why not
so these ones are probably gonna go in
the doghouse but I do want to keep this
color around for a little bit
heck to the no this reminds me of trying
to dress up like a Christmas tree this
one I am NOT opposed to the color like I
said tell me what you guys think if you
seriously think that this is like an
okay color don't lie to me please ponies
don't lie to me and just tell me what's
good for my for my sake so really don't
walk around looking like a clown as my
husband calls me sometimes you look like
you look like a clown like oh hush it
but I guess anyways off off with the
lips yeah but this stuff does work um so
maybe I wouldn't you know I'd have to
look for something that's similar in
color
but a better quality I think that's like
the biggest thing is the quality because
yeah I ain't down for that whole thing
but anyways on to the blood there know
like where am i bleeding from anyways
okay and then I got I think that you
guys are pretty oh so I have this one
from the Dollar Tree excuse the lid I I
pour into the lid so I can brush it on
to my eyes or whatever so I got this one
these are from LA Colors again their
Dollar Tree I have a purple one and then
I had this color it's like a Snow White
I have this color my daughter decided to
find it and take off with it this one is
lollipop and this one is great jelly so
my lovely child decided to take off with
my snow-white one could not find it
nowhere so it went ahead and bought
myself one about her one so she can have
one to play with because I like I am NOT
going to share with you and then I also
got this one is sunshine very pretty and
I think it would be really pretty just
like in the corners of my eyes and then
I got radiant it's another one and why I
bought that one was it yeah because look
see how close there hold on which one is
it no it's this one see how close they
are two colors they're like almost
identical and that's why I bought him
cuz I was gonna like do like a fall
color and like wear this sweater make it
look so cute enough yeah and then I got
me some eyelash curlers if I can
remember what the name of the mode I
think that was it yeah that was it but
they had like they had these all these
colors but actually these were these
were cheaper at Walmart than a dollar
because they were 97 cents at Walmart
they're a dollar at Dollar Tree so but
now I have multiple colors of the
glitters and I will probably next time I
go to Dollar Tree I'll probably pick up
some more because I love that's what I
have been into is that stupid glitter I
mean literally that's like what it is
anywho so we're gonna sit here we're
gonna chitchat while amy takes off her
makeup because I wore makeup today and
it needs to come off clearly
I really hope you guys had a fantastic
day to day I have just been so
overwhelmed with the comments in such a
good way it definitely you know it just
uplifts me and I I got teary-eyed and
kind of was crying to ollie this
afternoon and I was like you know it
means so much to me all the support that
I am getting in the people you know that
I have that are just rallying behind me
and cheering me on they don't even know
who I am a hundred percent you know I
mean pretty much I am a pretty open book
in this sense that these things work so
good in this sense that you know what's
I I don't hide anything you know I mean
there are things clearly that I just
choose to not really talk about not
things I'm hiding it but because
sometimes I don't feel the need to show
to show what am what's the word I'm
thinking of attention to it and usually
that's like negative stuff and that's
why I'm just like yeah you know there's
some things that just can clearly stay
off of the channel and it would do
better
um and so for me I just it meant so much
though when I was reading the messages
today and you know really I was feeling
so hard on myself and really getting
pretty tough on myself about the whole
you know working out and really working
to benefit my weight loss more so than I
have and just reading the comments and
stuff you know when you're when you're
the person losing the weight sorry I'm
looking into my camera so I can I'm
using you guys as a mirror so I'm not
clearly looking at you guys sorry but
when when I'm okay
I have such high expectations for myself
as you guys all know that I set my first
goal to lose 150 pounds in 90 days and
joy I think that that's an outlandish
goal um
I think now that I am into it
sorry you guys I'm sure you guys don't
want like it up close and personal with
my eye but I felt like I had a hair in
it anyways let's try this again
but when I I don't believe that losing
150 pounds in 90 days is off the like
core and ridiculous and you know things
like that but I think if I would have a
night I believe I could have probably
lost 150 pounds in 90 days if I really
really really really wanted to but how I
would have done that would have been no
carbs no sugars I would have totally
ripped everything out of my eating habit
I mean like my eating completely chain
would change I think that I would
personally lose a lot of energy muscle
and stuff because I think my body would
start eating at my muscle because I'm
not getting obviously enough calories to
lose that much weight at one given time
and I really feel that how I'm doing it
now is really the way I should have done
it from the beginning
so I'm ten weeks in um today I'm as on
71 days right no yeah 71 71 days sorry
my days are all mixing to each other I'm
at 71 days and today I lost six pounds
and that has put me out 52 pounds lost
and I said my tell myself okay so in
another 10 weeks 10 weeks I could lose
another just say 770 pounds
I could lose another just say 50 pounds
that would be a hundred and two pounds
in 20 weeks is that a goal I'm trying to
set no no it's not I hit my first goal
of 40 pounds my second goal is gonna be
80 pounds and I believe that that's how
my course is gonna go so I will reach my
second goal at 80 pounds and at 80
pounds it's like I know I get a new
charm I get you know I get to celebrate
such a great accomplishment but knowing
that I'm doing it the right way the
healthy way and the way that it's gonna
stay off for the rest of my life because
as days go by I can go back and watch
these videos and talk to myself talk to
my old self because that's kind of what
I'm doing as I make these vlogs and I
show people and I'm showing you guys the
struggles I go through the you know the
things that I have to go through to get
to where I'm at I'm also showing myself
and so it's gonna be such a great
reminder to go back and like oh my gosh
you know look at look at the pain that
it took me to get to this point look at
what I had to go through look we're you
know it took our family and so it's just
it's a fond memory making at the same
time of reaching so many great amazing
people and I just couldn't be happier I
really sincerely could not be happier
with where I am in life right now and
just seeing that I lost six pounds I
mean you know I went up two pounds last
week
and that was that was a discouragement
that was not in a bad way but it was
just like oh you know two pounds gosh
that's two pounds an hour I got to work
harder out but then it was like this
week when I stepped on the scale and I
seen that I went down six pounds I was
like oh my gosh so not only did I lose
the two pounds that I had gained
previous but I also just know
lost an extra four pounds and I just I
am so I'm so happy with myself I am
honestly sincerely so happy that I am
sticking to this and I am doing it and
it just makes me get emotional because
it's like I am never ever ever stuck to
something this strong so well and being
so firm just like tonight it was just
one of those nights that you know only
had a customer and it was getting late I
was busy and we have not literally eaten
out in ten weeks you guys ten weeks when
normally we were eating out at least
three to four times a week and so I
asked Olli I said you know tonight was
my way at night and what I do is on my
way and night so Saturday night if I'm
gonna have a heavier carved dinner I
mean I eat carbs all the time don't get
me wrong please you know get me wrong I
eat carbs all the time
but if I'm gonna eat a heavier side
dinner I do that on Saturday night so
that I have the rest of the week to just
continue on with the rest of the way
that I've gone the rest of the week but
you know I'm not gonna deprive myself
and things that you know are are
enjoying and it was a treat it was a
complete treat but I went ahead and told
all this and you know tonight let's go
ahead and get a pizza we have not had a
pizza in ten weeks I think that it would
be a great treat for our family and he
went and got it and you know what I am
so proud of myself because I ate two
pieces of pizza and I was done I mean we
get them for it's called wall arrays
which I don't I don't know if they're
just a local pizzeria but they make the
the crust very very very thin it's like
a crunchy thin crust and their pizza
their sizes are very small actually like
literally you could put two together and
it would make it only the size of a
normal piece of pizza not like the huge
pieces like a normal piece of pizza and
so I technically I four of those but
like all he said if you measured it up
you technically only ate two pieces now
in the old times when I was eating
unhealthy you guys I would sit and
probably easily eat 12 12 slices no joke
no joke that's how much OD and tonight I
ate four which comes up to two pieces of
pizza and I sat there and I was like you
know what I'm not stuffed
I'm not stuffed by any means but I'm
just fine I got food in my belly
I am good take this Pizza wait and go
put it away from me please cuz I don't
want it no more I won't have it tomorrow
it was a treat for tonight and that is
it and I'm learning and it's coming
easier now I will say it is coming much
easier now where my you know being able
to eat things in moderation and enjoy it
and have a nice experience with it but
not use it as a coping or makeup meal I
guess you would say and when I say make
up mil like well when I was you know
younger I wanted this and this and this
and I didn't have it so I'm in and make
sure that I have it this time um I
didn't feel that way tonight at all and
you know my family had bought they
bought these chocolates from Costco and
it's like babe stomached but honestly it
really hasn't bothered me but I had two
pieces of these little tiny mini
chocolates today and that was all I had
I I put the rest away and I didn't even
go back to thinking about it
so all today so far all I had was for
breakfast I had one breakfast sandwich
and then for lunch I had to be four oh
nice tick and then that was it and then
I had the two pieces of pizza tonight
and then also within this afternoon I
had the two little pieces of chocolate
and that was it that's all I had all day
today and I feel just fine and I'm gonna
continue doing what I have been doing I
feel amazing I feel great I
feel like I'm accomplishing things now I
get I now I see that I can get my
workouts in and it feels good so what
I'm gonna do and we were talking about
it tonight me and ollie were because I'm
gonna make a little bit of a workout
schedule so that we kind of know what
I'm expecting so he kind of knows what
he's expecting not me um so Monday
Wednesday Friday I will do in-house
workout Tuesday Thursday I will do
outside walking the neighborhood if it's
not a raining afternoon or rainy morning
or whatever I choose to go for my walk I
will take the babies with me because
that's a great time for them to get out
get some exercise stretch their legs
breathe some fresh air
have a nice afternoon walk and if my
husband's around great he gets to go
with me if not they're really good about
sticking with me so that's not I'm not
worried about that um I hear my kids and
then Saturday and Sunday will be my rest
days where I will not do anything and
that's just to let my body relax my
muscles relax and everything just kind
of be able to get ready for you know
Monday's workouts so I am extremely
extremely extremely happy satisfied
and everything that's been going on in
my life lately and just seeing my weight
coming off just makes me feel so much
better I personally don't see it I look
at myself in the mirror and I'm just
like I don't see myself losing weight I
see the numbers going down and so that's
my indication I did not do like complete
measurements I wish I would have and
Mina Lee I told him the other day I
would like to start doing that so I
think that's something we're gonna start
trying to incorporate is at least once a
month do like measurements and I'll
write those down and keep them like in a
journal or maybe on my tablet or
something because my tablets gonna be
strictly used for YouTube business but
anyways yeah it was just it was a really
good day today and I just
I'm so excited I am so excited for what
the future holds for all of us because I
see this channel growing I see the
people pouring in and it just makes me
feel so good so yeah I think that we're
finding our niche and of course I know
that I have found my passion this is my
passion this is what I know I'm supposed
to be here doing in this world is
encouraging people and uplifting people
and making sure that everybody knows
they're not alone you're not going
through this alone don't ever feel alone
I am here and there's so many multiple
other people here that you always have
somebody to call on at any given time
and I just can't encourage you guys
enough to continue working so hard on
your guyses selves everybody is in their
own journeys of life to some our own
weight loss journeys others are on other
journeys and I just want to encourage
everybody to not lose hope or lose sight
of the goal that's at the end of this
complete journey which with my goal and
my journey the the goal at the end of my
the trophy at the end of this whole
thing is being able to have an active
life and be able to start traveling and
spending more quality time with my
babies taking them to parks and doing
things with them that I've always
dreamed of doing but I can't do it and I
couldn't do it going on vacations with
my husband and making memories with him
that we've never been able to do i my my
other plan is is we never had a wedding
and that is one of the biggest dreams of
mine is to have
to have a fairytale wedding and I know
that I'm worth it I know I'm worthy of
it he is - life threw everything at us
to get to where we were and where we are
and we both deserve that beautiful
wedding but I want to do that wedding
when I have lost all my weight and I can
wear the wedding dress of my dreams and
be at the place where I want my wedding
to be and have the most amazing people
there to witness it and to be a part of
it and maybe it will be you guys who
knows I you know who knows maybe maybe
I'll be able to incorporate all of you
guys into being able to come to the
wedding but it's definitely something
that is one of my biggest my biggest
trophy winner of all times is the end of
all of this I get to have the wedding of
my dreams and my husband promised me
that so that is definitely definitely
definitely something I'm looking forward
to have I started planning it of course
not
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but it will definitely be a time for me
that I will be able to finally do the
things that I wanted so with that all
set I hope you guys had a wonderful day
today I hope you guys enjoyed this
lovely vlog that I brought to you guys
washing my face and showing you some
nasty makeup and some courage good
kidney garden uh put on ones but yeah I
hope you guys enjoyed and I will talk to
you guys early in the morning tomorrow
have a wonderful evening
sweet dreams bye bye
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